MY GRANDMA'S DOG (A poem I wrote when I was 15)

MY GRANDMA’S DOG


My Grandma’s Dog is big and tall
She loves it when I throw her ball
I throw her ball into the air
The dog, she jumps to catch it there

I met the dog when I was young
The first part I met was her tongue
From that day we became great friends
We’d play until the day would end

We’d run and jump, play hide and seek
Then on her stomach, I’d fall asleep
The dog was like a giant to me
I loved her so much – every flea

When I left she’d whine and howl
And I’d cry til we left town
From my grandma’s house we’d drive away
And on my bed the dog would stay

As my life went on and on
From my mind the dog had gone
My great friend, lost from my mind
My memory of her had become blind

Replaced with girls, school and sport
No time to give her a thought
I wonder now if she missed me then
If she knew I missed her now and again

Last time I saw her, she wasn’t so tall
She was old but still wanted to play ball
She still gave her me her big dog smile
Even though I hadn’t seen her for a while

I was told the dog slept on my bed on the day
When death decided to take her away
My life now still goes on and on
I miss the dog now she has gone.

Grandma's Eulogy (written when I was 16)

Dear my adopted Grandma,

You adopted me as your Grandson and became a part of my childhood.
You’ll always be there when I think of the good times in my life.
I remember the walks to the park with Heidi, the glasses of Sarsaparilla, the bedtime stories and the school holidays we spent.
The times we spent talking and the board games we played.
I remember you tying a piece of string to the door handles so I could open them because I was too small.
I remember you would let me pick out my own personal show bag of toys and lollies because I couldn’t go to the show.
It seems so long ago, but I have and will always remember these times.

I grew up and the visits and phone calls became less but I never forgot.

You never yelled or even said no.
You made me feel so spoiled and so loved.
You were my Grandma when I didn’t have one.
You took me in like family and now I just hope that the Grandchildren you finally got will remember you as I do.
The sad part is they will miss some of the things that you gave me.

You helped in the moulding to make me the person I am today.
Without you in my childhood I’d be a different person.
I just wish I could have thanked you before
I’ll have to tell you in heaven.
I hope you’ll bake me a cake when I get there.

I feel for everyone who knew you – family and friends.
You were an extremely kind and loving person who will always be a part of my childhood and a part of me.

Sadly missed and never forgotten.

Memories forever.

With love from your Grandson,

Jon.

Ps. Please give Heidi a pat from me.

I DONT KNOW

Take me to another world
Make me feel
My heart fills with sorrow and happiness at once
Torn in silence
Truthfulness Forgetfulness
Hating myself yet loving another life
Impatient for change
Change constantly searching for
Ever giving self indulgence
Empathy without Sympathy
In a state of constant confusion
Of what is right and what is wrong
And who is right and who is wrong
And the blurred lines in between
What is moral and what is noble
Optimism surrounded by cynicism
Blamed mentality
Unhappiness Happiness Crapiness
Successful mind
Successful heart
Unsuccessful life
Judging eyes from those who care
Left out
Nothing is real
Nothing is sacred
The constant saying of
I don’t know
I don’t know
I don’t know
I don’t know

Ian Thorpe won't you be my man friend

Ian Thorpe won't you be my man friend
I think about you from my day's start to end
You're the best swimmer on the earth
Of your child I'd give birth

I will comb your hair and shave your face
We could have sleep over's at my place
We'd talk about girls and giggle and laugh
We could go for a swim in my mum's spa bath

You would beat me of course in our spa bath race
And water would splash all over the place
Then we'd dry off and watch your favorite movie
And mum could make us a banana smoothie

I go to the pool and put on my speedo
And pretend I'm the great Thorpedo
I wear Ian Thorpe brand Jewlery and Ian Thorpe cologne
You're so good; you'd give a dog a bone

Ian Thorpe wont you be my man friend
My aching heart you would mend
Oh Thorpy wont you hear my plea
I just hope that one day you and I can be 'we'...


(We as in us together, not urine.)

(I don't want Ian Thorpe to pee on me)

I LOVE DOGS AND I LOVE YOU

I love dogs and I love you

I love dogs and I love you
Dogs have wet tongues and you do too
I like it when a dogs licks me
I don't like it when I'm bit by a bee
I can call my dog a bitch and she doesn't mind
You call me a bitch when you smack my behind
My dog doesn't smack me
It just shakes hands
My dog begs and never makes demands
I love dogs and I love you
But at least I don't have to pick up your poo

My dog is like Kimmy Gibbler from Full House...

The Flat Chested Woman from Baywatch…

And Chunk from Goonies…

Combined…

Into a dog.

THEN NOTHING

Hesitate before that first kiss
Awkward silence
A touch…

Then nothing.

Flirting with love or disaster
Perhaps both
A look…

Then nothing.

A loving joke followed by a push
Thinking about it
A hug…

Then nothing.

An in-depth conversation
Connecting feeling
So close…

Then nothing.

A feeling of closeness
Emotional connection
A future…

Then nothing.

An unexpected loving compliment
A fluttering heart
A warmness…

Then nothing.

A heated argument
Underlying attraction
A sorry said…

Then nothing.
A connection felt
A realisation
A long stare…

Then nothing…

What’s after the nothing?
A changed life
A love
Then…



Something?