MY GRANDMA’S DOG
My Grandma’s Dog is big and tall
She loves it when I throw her ball
I throw her ball into the air
The dog, she jumps to catch it there
I met the dog when I was young
The first part I met was her tongue
From that day we became great friends
We’d play until the day would end
We’d run and jump, play hide and seek
Then on her stomach, I’d fall asleep
The dog was like a giant to me
I loved her so much – every flea
When I left she’d whine and howl
And I’d cry til we left town
From my grandma’s house we’d drive away
And on my bed the dog would stay
As my life went on and on
From my mind the dog had gone
My great friend, lost from my mind
My memory of her had become blind
Replaced with girls, school and sport
No time to give her a thought
I wonder now if she missed me then
If she knew I missed her now and again
Last time I saw her, she wasn’t so tall
She was old but still wanted to play ball
She still gave her me her big dog smile
Even though I hadn’t seen her for a while
I was told the dog slept on my bed on the day
When death decided to take her away
My life now still goes on and on
I miss the dog now she has gone.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Grandma's Eulogy (written when I was 16)
Dear my adopted Grandma,
You adopted me as your Grandson and became a part of my childhood.
You’ll always be there when I think of the good times in my life.
I remember the walks to the park with Heidi, the glasses of Sarsaparilla, the bedtime stories and the school holidays we spent.
The times we spent talking and the board games we played.
I remember you tying a piece of string to the door handles so I could open them because I was too small.
I remember you would let me pick out my own personal show bag of toys and lollies because I couldn’t go to the show.
It seems so long ago, but I have and will always remember these times.
I grew up and the visits and phone calls became less but I never forgot.
You never yelled or even said no.
You made me feel so spoiled and so loved.
You were my Grandma when I didn’t have one.
You took me in like family and now I just hope that the Grandchildren you finally got will remember you as I do.
The sad part is they will miss some of the things that you gave me.
You helped in the moulding to make me the person I am today.
Without you in my childhood I’d be a different person.
I just wish I could have thanked you before
I’ll have to tell you in heaven.
I hope you’ll bake me a cake when I get there.
I feel for everyone who knew you – family and friends.
You were an extremely kind and loving person who will always be a part of my childhood and a part of me.
Sadly missed and never forgotten.
Memories forever.
With love from your Grandson,
Jon.
Ps. Please give Heidi a pat from me.
You adopted me as your Grandson and became a part of my childhood.
You’ll always be there when I think of the good times in my life.
I remember the walks to the park with Heidi, the glasses of Sarsaparilla, the bedtime stories and the school holidays we spent.
The times we spent talking and the board games we played.
I remember you tying a piece of string to the door handles so I could open them because I was too small.
I remember you would let me pick out my own personal show bag of toys and lollies because I couldn’t go to the show.
It seems so long ago, but I have and will always remember these times.
I grew up and the visits and phone calls became less but I never forgot.
You never yelled or even said no.
You made me feel so spoiled and so loved.
You were my Grandma when I didn’t have one.
You took me in like family and now I just hope that the Grandchildren you finally got will remember you as I do.
The sad part is they will miss some of the things that you gave me.
You helped in the moulding to make me the person I am today.
Without you in my childhood I’d be a different person.
I just wish I could have thanked you before
I’ll have to tell you in heaven.
I hope you’ll bake me a cake when I get there.
I feel for everyone who knew you – family and friends.
You were an extremely kind and loving person who will always be a part of my childhood and a part of me.
Sadly missed and never forgotten.
Memories forever.
With love from your Grandson,
Jon.
Ps. Please give Heidi a pat from me.
I DONT KNOW
Take me to another world
Make me feel
My heart fills with sorrow and happiness at once
Torn in silence
Truthfulness Forgetfulness
Hating myself yet loving another life
Impatient for change
Change constantly searching for
Ever giving self indulgence
Empathy without Sympathy
In a state of constant confusion
Of what is right and what is wrong
And who is right and who is wrong
And the blurred lines in between
What is moral and what is noble
Optimism surrounded by cynicism
Blamed mentality
Unhappiness Happiness Crapiness
Successful mind
Successful heart
Unsuccessful life
Judging eyes from those who care
Left out
Nothing is real
Nothing is sacred
The constant saying of
I don’t know
I don’t know
I don’t know
I don’t know
Make me feel
My heart fills with sorrow and happiness at once
Torn in silence
Truthfulness Forgetfulness
Hating myself yet loving another life
Impatient for change
Change constantly searching for
Ever giving self indulgence
Empathy without Sympathy
In a state of constant confusion
Of what is right and what is wrong
And who is right and who is wrong
And the blurred lines in between
What is moral and what is noble
Optimism surrounded by cynicism
Blamed mentality
Unhappiness Happiness Crapiness
Successful mind
Successful heart
Unsuccessful life
Judging eyes from those who care
Left out
Nothing is real
Nothing is sacred
The constant saying of
I don’t know
I don’t know
I don’t know
I don’t know
Friday, May 16, 2008
Ian Thorpe won't you be my man friend
Ian Thorpe won't you be my man friend
I think about you from my day's start to end
You're the best swimmer on the earth
Of your child I'd give birth
I will comb your hair and shave your face
We could have sleep over's at my place
We'd talk about girls and giggle and laugh
We could go for a swim in my mum's spa bath
You would beat me of course in our spa bath race
And water would splash all over the place
Then we'd dry off and watch your favorite movie
And mum could make us a banana smoothie
I go to the pool and put on my speedo
And pretend I'm the great Thorpedo
I wear Ian Thorpe brand Jewlery and Ian Thorpe cologne
You're so good; you'd give a dog a bone
Ian Thorpe wont you be my man friend
My aching heart you would mend
Oh Thorpy wont you hear my plea
I just hope that one day you and I can be 'we'...
(We as in us together, not urine.)
(I don't want Ian Thorpe to pee on me)
I think about you from my day's start to end
You're the best swimmer on the earth
Of your child I'd give birth
I will comb your hair and shave your face
We could have sleep over's at my place
We'd talk about girls and giggle and laugh
We could go for a swim in my mum's spa bath
You would beat me of course in our spa bath race
And water would splash all over the place
Then we'd dry off and watch your favorite movie
And mum could make us a banana smoothie
I go to the pool and put on my speedo
And pretend I'm the great Thorpedo
I wear Ian Thorpe brand Jewlery and Ian Thorpe cologne
You're so good; you'd give a dog a bone
Ian Thorpe wont you be my man friend
My aching heart you would mend
Oh Thorpy wont you hear my plea
I just hope that one day you and I can be 'we'...
(We as in us together, not urine.)
(I don't want Ian Thorpe to pee on me)
I LOVE DOGS AND I LOVE YOU
I love dogs and I love you
I love dogs and I love you
Dogs have wet tongues and you do too
I like it when a dogs licks me
I don't like it when I'm bit by a bee
I can call my dog a bitch and she doesn't mind
You call me a bitch when you smack my behind
My dog doesn't smack me
It just shakes hands
My dog begs and never makes demands
I love dogs and I love you
But at least I don't have to pick up your poo
My dog is like Kimmy Gibbler from Full House...
The Flat Chested Woman from Baywatch…
And Chunk from Goonies…
Combined…
Into a dog.
I love dogs and I love you
Dogs have wet tongues and you do too
I like it when a dogs licks me
I don't like it when I'm bit by a bee
I can call my dog a bitch and she doesn't mind
You call me a bitch when you smack my behind
My dog doesn't smack me
It just shakes hands
My dog begs and never makes demands
I love dogs and I love you
But at least I don't have to pick up your poo
My dog is like Kimmy Gibbler from Full House...
The Flat Chested Woman from Baywatch…
And Chunk from Goonies…
Combined…
Into a dog.
THEN NOTHING
Hesitate before that first kiss
Awkward silence
A touch…
Then nothing.
Flirting with love or disaster
Perhaps both
A look…
Then nothing.
A loving joke followed by a push
Thinking about it
A hug…
Then nothing.
An in-depth conversation
Connecting feeling
So close…
Then nothing.
A feeling of closeness
Emotional connection
A future…
Then nothing.
An unexpected loving compliment
A fluttering heart
A warmness…
Then nothing.
A heated argument
Underlying attraction
A sorry said…
Then nothing.
A connection felt
A realisation
A long stare…
Then nothing…
What’s after the nothing?
A changed life
A love
Then…
Something?
Awkward silence
A touch…
Then nothing.
Flirting with love or disaster
Perhaps both
A look…
Then nothing.
A loving joke followed by a push
Thinking about it
A hug…
Then nothing.
An in-depth conversation
Connecting feeling
So close…
Then nothing.
A feeling of closeness
Emotional connection
A future…
Then nothing.
An unexpected loving compliment
A fluttering heart
A warmness…
Then nothing.
A heated argument
Underlying attraction
A sorry said…
Then nothing.
A connection felt
A realisation
A long stare…
Then nothing…
What’s after the nothing?
A changed life
A love
Then…
Something?
SOMEONE
SOMEONE
All you need is someone to need you
Someone who’s happy just with you
Someone who thinks of you
And you make them smile
Someone who feels like they can’t live without you
Someone who you feel when they think about you
Someone who is having fun but still wishes you were there
Someone who wants to share everything with you
To see how you feel and think
Someone with whom you can always laugh with
Someone who warms your heart
Someone who makes you feel good about yourself
Someone who does little things that makes you feel good
Someone you want to sit with
Someone who wants to sit with you
Someone whose touch makes your heart flutter
Someone who you enjoy talking to even if it’s an argument
Because you know it’s never hard to say sorry
Someone who forgives all the little bad things about you
Someone you hate to see hurt so much that you feel their pain as your own
Someone who makes you want to hold them sooooo tight
Someone who surprises you everyday
Someone who you miss when you wake up alone
Someone who little things remind you of them
When do we find this someone?
Who’s the someone for me and you?
Not everyone has a someone, but just hope that one day someone’s someone
is you.
I love someone.
All you need is someone to need you
Someone who’s happy just with you
Someone who thinks of you
And you make them smile
Someone who feels like they can’t live without you
Someone who you feel when they think about you
Someone who is having fun but still wishes you were there
Someone who wants to share everything with you
To see how you feel and think
Someone with whom you can always laugh with
Someone who warms your heart
Someone who makes you feel good about yourself
Someone who does little things that makes you feel good
Someone you want to sit with
Someone who wants to sit with you
Someone whose touch makes your heart flutter
Someone who you enjoy talking to even if it’s an argument
Because you know it’s never hard to say sorry
Someone who forgives all the little bad things about you
Someone you hate to see hurt so much that you feel their pain as your own
Someone who makes you want to hold them sooooo tight
Someone who surprises you everyday
Someone who you miss when you wake up alone
Someone who little things remind you of them
When do we find this someone?
Who’s the someone for me and you?
Not everyone has a someone, but just hope that one day someone’s someone
is you.
I love someone.
Questioning Love
Pretty much every aspect of life constantly confuses me. I feel as though nothing is set or even really real. Emotions are something I just can’t grasp.
Love? What is love? People say you just know when you’re in love but I’m not sure about that. I don’t know if love even really exists? To me love is something that you should probably feel for everything and everyone you know or at least anyone that you have fond feelings for. Anyone who is your friend or whom you seem to have a connection to and if you’re a person who likes pretty much most people then you should in turn love them.
I don’t think anyone (generally but I know this is what I feel) really wants to see another person or living thing actually get hurt or see another person sad or in any sort of pain because in turn you feel a part of that pain. You watch films and read books so you feel what those characters are feeling and you empathise. I think the only difference between the above mentioned ‘platonic’ kind of love and the love shared between two people who are ironically called ‘lovers’ is the physical attraction.
So I don’t think that there is any one person that is meant to be with another. In fact I feel the exact opposite. I feel there are many people in this world who are capable of being lovers or ‘in love’ with each other. Two people who are in love are simply great friends who have a lot of things in common and enjoy each other’s company whom also find each other attractive. If you have a great friend whom you also find attractive then I think if there is mutual attraction then all that is needed is to act on that attraction.
The only time these relationships don’t work is when one of the two doesn’t find the other attractive anymore or their friendship isn’t what they thought it was. So really people who don’t stay together in the one relationship is because both the friendship and the attraction has ceased so much that you can’t rely on one of these two feelings to keep the relationship going. Some relationships would be 50% friendship and 50% attraction but when the attraction dies down to a lower percent then the friendship has to sustain the rest (eg. 30% attraction 70% friendship). If either of these can’t sustain the other to keep the relationship at 100% then there may be problems.
In this theory, perhaps humans aren’t really meant to be in completely monogamous relationships. Why are we one of the only species who really are?
I do believe in community though. Being surrounded by people who you like to be around – which is why people start families I guess? But why are we so bound by this notion of family. My brother and I are nothing alike. We have nothing in common except the same parents and siblings, other than that there is nothing? Does that mean that I’m still supposed to love him? Most people would be astounded by anyone who didn’t love their own brother but is that only because we’ve been trained that we have to love these people no matter what? That said I do love my brother because I love everyone – why shouldn’t I love everyone. I don’t want to see anyone get hurt ever and I especially don’t want anyone I actually know who is in my community getting hurt. So when asked if I love someone I will say ‘yes’. If I’m also attracted to that person does that make me ‘in love’ with them? I guess it does.
Love? What is love? People say you just know when you’re in love but I’m not sure about that. I don’t know if love even really exists? To me love is something that you should probably feel for everything and everyone you know or at least anyone that you have fond feelings for. Anyone who is your friend or whom you seem to have a connection to and if you’re a person who likes pretty much most people then you should in turn love them.
I don’t think anyone (generally but I know this is what I feel) really wants to see another person or living thing actually get hurt or see another person sad or in any sort of pain because in turn you feel a part of that pain. You watch films and read books so you feel what those characters are feeling and you empathise. I think the only difference between the above mentioned ‘platonic’ kind of love and the love shared between two people who are ironically called ‘lovers’ is the physical attraction.
So I don’t think that there is any one person that is meant to be with another. In fact I feel the exact opposite. I feel there are many people in this world who are capable of being lovers or ‘in love’ with each other. Two people who are in love are simply great friends who have a lot of things in common and enjoy each other’s company whom also find each other attractive. If you have a great friend whom you also find attractive then I think if there is mutual attraction then all that is needed is to act on that attraction.
The only time these relationships don’t work is when one of the two doesn’t find the other attractive anymore or their friendship isn’t what they thought it was. So really people who don’t stay together in the one relationship is because both the friendship and the attraction has ceased so much that you can’t rely on one of these two feelings to keep the relationship going. Some relationships would be 50% friendship and 50% attraction but when the attraction dies down to a lower percent then the friendship has to sustain the rest (eg. 30% attraction 70% friendship). If either of these can’t sustain the other to keep the relationship at 100% then there may be problems.
In this theory, perhaps humans aren’t really meant to be in completely monogamous relationships. Why are we one of the only species who really are?
I do believe in community though. Being surrounded by people who you like to be around – which is why people start families I guess? But why are we so bound by this notion of family. My brother and I are nothing alike. We have nothing in common except the same parents and siblings, other than that there is nothing? Does that mean that I’m still supposed to love him? Most people would be astounded by anyone who didn’t love their own brother but is that only because we’ve been trained that we have to love these people no matter what? That said I do love my brother because I love everyone – why shouldn’t I love everyone. I don’t want to see anyone get hurt ever and I especially don’t want anyone I actually know who is in my community getting hurt. So when asked if I love someone I will say ‘yes’. If I’m also attracted to that person does that make me ‘in love’ with them? I guess it does.
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